I think of how I love to sit back and watch my grandkids play. Sometimes I just laugh because they are emmulating what they see in their parents or in other adults. God must be the same way. He sits up in heaven watching us play at life. We go through the motions of church or marriage or work or whatever emmulating what we think is His way. He must have the most amazing 'laugh-fests' with the angels & Jesus.
So, what is it that God is doing in me that I whined and cried about for so long? Well, I am now experiencing the most amazing opportunity of my 30 odd years in ministry. I am currently the 'interim' pastor at the church. I have preached in 'big church' before but normally when I do, it's a 'children's service' done for the adults complete with the games & video clips, etc. It is a way to showcase what we do for their children. You know, so that the moms & dads see exactly what we do and that we are not just babysitting their kids. I love that I am having the chance to preach to adults in an adult way. And God is so amazing because He is giving me the messages to share. Besides this, the messages are perfectly timely for this time that our church is going through.
As much as I am enjoying what God is doing, I am anxious for the process of choosing a pastor to get underway so that our church can move forward. I know that God has amazing things for my church. In fact, I believe that the verse for our church during this time is Jeremiah 29:11..."'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I take this verse very much to heart. See the name of our church is New Hope. I believe God is speaking directly to New Hope at this time...He is telling us that the enemy will NOT prevail and that He has plans to give New Hope a future.
Yes, God must get irritated with us when we don't understand why things are the way they are...like this past year for me...feeling lost and unwanted became the norm for a while. Now, God has put one more piece of the puzzle of my life out there and I can see...I was left at New Hope for a reason...for the season we are going through. It's not that I am special or anything but it was God's plan. I am only special because God is in me. Yes, I am enjoying this very special opportunity to share in the main sanctuary for a while. It allows me to become a more well-rounded minister of the Gospel as well as lets the congregation see me in a different way.
Walking the walk & Talking the talk,